watchin a show on mtv
its called trueLIFE
that's funny enough, right?
but this one's interesting
about a gay pornstar who's straight
that iS, a straight man who's a gay porn actor
("should we be talking about this??")
just for the money, dolla dolla bill y'all
and i, broke, wonder..,
i wonder all kinds of things, really
like how strange i always felt for loving assPLAY
during sex with womyn
like how some of the nights i do watch porn
it can lead to beautiful womyn fucking men with dildos
but also, how this perspective intrigues me
what worlds iS it where a guy iS broke and fucks men for a living but don't tell his family
how embarrassing it might be if all those people YOU know knew what YOU do sometimes, right?
don't' we all have secrets to hide?
in the 23rd line of a poem, maybe (count em)
or maybe in the top drawer, behind the socks
or in a folder named "web documents" somewhere
his sister thinks he's "disgusting"
that he "has issues"
maybe if you told ALL you could receive such praise
he's broken, i feel, well, something
and i miss the real people who never judge me
and every sex partner who ever played with my ass
this iS my poem, after all