I have taken the pill
was feeling woozy beforehand
now things have their perspective
funny such dependence on industry,
gary texts asking if you can get on disability for being a sociopath.
i don't think so gary.
i have bargained with the devil
for a pittance
for a stipend
for black coffee in the morning
beer at night
try and combat the devil
and it's easier with food in stomach.
i am holding on
tho images come and go
sifting through the sieve
still dream and gaze.
this is the best i've got.
there is the tapering image
of you kissing my neck
gently many times
unfold my head and neck in the crux of your arms
you are so gentle firm
little birds dance round yr tender words
no matter what, you say them
and i wonder if it wears as burden
or it comes with ease of my having done that too for you
What a safety net!
What an improvement!
What gorgeous tender little bird laden moments!
then in the evening we drink and talk under the soft white lights
repeated into the abyss
into nighttime and enfolded arm cruxes
and return to that spot
that shining place of respite.